Crazy dreams! I remember flying to Los Angeles with my mother. We got there safely. There were tv’s all over the airport showing 130 degree weather in Mexico due to high volcanic activity. The volcano was shooting lava all over America. We were about to hop a short connector flight to Hollywood. Once we got on the jet things were a bit shaky. We took off and got pretty high. Then the aircraft began to sway and move in circles. When we started descending quickly, I braced myself for the worst. When we were almost near the ocean shore the plane tipped over. When I knew it was safe I unbuckled my seatbelt and allowed myself to drop into the ocean. There were large lava rocks in the water. Somehow my belongings were with me. Mom was ok too. Just a bit shaken up. She took the free hotel offer from the airline. I got a rental car and drove to Hollywood. Upon my arrival I found that it wasn’t what I wanted it to be. I had to park my car and climb through obstacles on the street to try to reach Hollywood blvd. I wanted to go home. There were no scheduled flights due to the volcano that was supposed to sink parts of CA, Cape Cod, as well as many small islands. My mom called and asked for cigarettes while I was fixing my phone in a smoke shop. I told her I’d try to find some. I didn’t want her to smoke. That’s pretty much all I can remember. It was a long dream. The scenery around the airport was beautiful. I can’t believe I was so calm in a falling plane during a natural disaster. I sure hope I dream of happier things tonight!
Dear Higher Powers of the Universe,
I’m not sure how much more of this I can take. First we lost a pregnancy in July. Then I pulled my shoulder muscle in August and had serious chest pains and unbelievable aches. Then it was my digestive track in September causing me major discomfort and questioning serious illnesses. The day I saw a gastroenternologist was about a week ago, and she made me feel so much better. Must have been a bug or some kind of bacteria in my intestines. That very same day my daughter came home with a fever. It’s been five long days. She is still sick. We’ve had a rocky start this October. My husband came home last night all shook up because a deer ran into his car, again. There’s a significant amount of damage to his car. Thankfully he’s okay.
I’m getting better. Still have aches and pains. Guess I’m getting old. That’s life, they say. Rachel is still sick. She also has a nasty cough that can’t be cured. She’s missed two days of school and can’t go back until the fever is gone. My husbands car needs some work. I need a break. I feel like I can’t catch one. What is with all this bad luck!? I try to exert nothing but good karma and I feel like none of it comes back. Yes I am happily married. Yes I love my home, but could we please all be happy and healthy!? Is that too much to ask? I would love to enjoy my life but I’m finding it very difficult to do so. I dropped out of a play. I dropped two classes. I want to begin gaining things. Like good luck and health!
So if you’re listening… Please shine some light over here. We could sure use the help. Thanks and have a great day!
Love, Linzy
P.S. I Am Willing To Work With You On This! I Won’t Give Up!
“It Must Have Been Love” - Originally By: Roxette
I need to pick up my guitar again and see what happens. I’m feeling some inspiration flowing through my veins. I’ve been through a lot these past few months. I have my husband to thank for my sanity. My daughter for keeping me alive. Myself for pushing forward. Here’s To Music!
This video is a couple years old. Time for some new ones, I know!
My goal for today is to sit back, relax and try to enjoy a day free of worrying. I worry way too much. Stress isn’t good for me or anyone for that matter. I’ve been stressing over my health for over a week now. Scared that something is seriously wrong with my digestive track. I’m praying each day that I will overcome this and be happy and healthy in no time. I’m going to see a Gastro specialist on Friday. I’m going to try my best not to worry until then. I’ve changed my diet completely. It’s tough and depressing but I’m doing the best I can.
Today I’m going to do some reading for school. I’m also planning on catching up on some TV shows I have recorded on my DVR. I want to be happy. I want nothing more than to live a long healthy life. Turning twenty seven was supposed to be the best year of my life. My family is wonderful. I love my home. The only thing that’s not doing so well is me. I’m doing the best I can to change that. I’ve gotta start thinking more positively. Worrying and stressing out is only going to make things worse. Whatever is wrong with me, I will conquer!
Here’s to a lazy, relaxing day! :)
